ella really likes the 'do you want to date my avatar' song and lyrics, mainly the chorus and i felt i had to share mainly because it is so adorable. she really fills me up like a rechargeable battery. kids have the natural ability to cut through the crap of life and send that message of empathy straight to your heart. i'm so proud of my daughter. she's the world to me. i will care, protect, educate and provide for my daughter until my bones are dust.
"How wonderful is the human voice! it is indeed the organ of the soul! The intellect of man sits enthroned visibly upon the forehead and in his eye; and the heart of man is writtten upon his countenance. But the soul reveals itself in the voice only, as God revealed himself to the prophet of old, in "the still, small voice," and in a voice from the burning bush. The soul of man is audible, not visible. A sound alone betrays the flowing of the eternal fountain, invisible to man!" Henry David Longfellow
I dont wanna feel no more
Its easier to keep falling
imitations appeal
emptyness all tomorrows haunted by your ghost
lay down black gives way to blue
lay down i remember you
I recorded this on the sly this morning. A lot of the time she gets enamored of the phone and freezes up if she sees that I am recording with it.
Fear is the non-acceptance of What Is.
So I recently became unemployed. My first instinct was to start searching for a job immediately. I’ve been in continuous employment for 12 or 13 years, whether part time through Uni or full time since then.
I applied for a job, got an interview (my first in over 10 years, I was surprisingly calm!) and got offered the job. But I turned it down. There were a few reasons - firstly in the interview I got the impression that the job wasn’t quite what I had interpreted from the job description. But mainly I realised that I just didn’t want to go back to work.
A few people when I have told them have nodded and winked at me, saying, “Ah, living the life of luxury, eh?!” I laugh with them, but there’s part of me that wants to challenge them. Luxury? If I wanted luxury I’d work - and pay for someone to clean my house, dig my garden and cook my meals. With my wages being completely discretionary spending money, I could buy what I want, when I want. That would be luxury. Luxury is not housework!
I am in the fortunate position that we are able to live off my husband’s wages, so I do not have to work. It’s just that I’d never really considered not working. Afterall, that would be lazy, wouldn’t it? It’s not as if I have kids to look after, that’s a real reason not to work. And while we don’t need the money, we’d certainly find something to do with it if we had it. In fact, am I not being selfish - afterall with many people struggling around us, if I was at work that would mean more money to give away to support others. So shouldn’t I go back to work?
I didn’t decide to stay at home so that I could relax. Yes, I don’t have the pressure of having to be up for work each day - though it is my nature and habit to be up and dressed by 8am daily anyway. Each day I fill my time quite easily - alot more easily than I would have thought possible. By not working I have discovered a valuable resource I have to offer - my time. Who do I offer it to? Well, whoever needs it. Whether that’s a friend to meet for coffee and a chat, someone to pray with over the phone, helping someone with their garden, emergency babysitting, working for the church, volunteering for some work - all this is as valuable, if not more so than giving a donation. As well as this I can keep my house clean, being a blessing to my husband; and I can pursue some of my own passions, such as writing and singing. Yes, I do enjoy most of the things I do with my time - even cleaning out the shed and hours of back breaking digging in the garden! Does that mean I have selfishly chosen a way of life that is only for my pleasure?
Well, I do not believe so. I believe that I have been obedient to God in doing what he wants - making myself available in a new way to do his will. It is a challenge, and I am really having to work at getting used to being my own boss! It’s easy to beat myself up for not being productive, or put a heavy load of pressure on myself to be able to account for every hour of the day. Afterall, I probably achieve less each day than if I were at work. At work you know that from the hours 9-5, or whatever your work day is, you have worked and achieved in that time. Establishing your only daily activities - it’s easy to feel you have nothing to show for you day. Especially if one of your daily activities is something life music practice for an hour - what do you have to show at the end of that? I might know I have done it, but no-one else will. In many ways I don’t really like not working.
But at the same time - even in these past 2 months God has been showing me how he can use me in new ways.
I don’t know how long I will continue to not work - until God tells me to get a job! Or until I run out of patience and endurance to manage my own time effectively. I only pray that God will achieve with my what he wants to in this time. Whatever I do - whether paid or not - I do for his glory. So in that sense - perhaps it is a life of luxury afterall.
Reuploaded
Don't watch if you haven't finished watching all 36 episodes of Meteor Shower because there are spoiler scenes in this video! By the way, in case you're wondering about the ending which seems cut off by a few seconds (the original video I got was like that), the video just shows the girl, Yuxun, with a shocked and serious face before fading into black. Download video, song, find complete lyrics at my blog http://bit.ly/woGa8
Here's another English-subtitled Meteor Shower OST video, Fen Shen Qing Ren, by Wei Chen (Ye Shuo): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RlBmYk...Shi Yi LyricsOpen your diary,